And so it begins

StudyAs a professional procrastinator, I take great pride in my quality under the pressure, deadline, stress-driven work. However, I have been informed time and time again that the MCAT is not one of those exams you want to procrastinate on. It’s sad, but I am just beginning my studies for my August test date. Don’t you dare tell me I should have started sooner, because trust me, I know I should have. It’s all a matter of what I’m comfortable with, and to be honest two and a half months in advance feels way too early for me. So I consider this progress. I know for a fact that I won’t remember a single thing that I am studying now, but hey, at least I can say that I tried.

Demons run when a good man goes to war
Night will fall and drown the sun
When a good man goes to war

Friendship dies and true love lies
Night will fall and the dark will rise
When a good man goes to war

Demons run, but count the cost
The battle’s won, but the child is lost

-Steven Moffat

The comfortable confusion of a fellowship

It’s been a week since I’ve began my fellowship in a lab for clinical and translational science. Through the course of this week, I’ve done everything from computerized genetic engineering to developing my laboratory techniques. I even have my own lab bench! Among all of the PCR gels, DNA extractions, and digests, I’ve realized how little I know about genetics. At first, it was extremely overwhelming not understanding a single thing about my fellowship. However, as each day passed, I found that I became more and more comfortable with the confusion before me. As my mentor tells me time and time again, even he who has been in this particular lab the longest, doesn’t know why we do some of the things we do.

Physics says: go to sleep. Of course
you’re tired. Every atom in you
has been dancing the shimmy in silver shoes
nonstop from mitosis to now.
Quit tapping your feet. They’ll dance
inside themselves without you. Go to sleep.

Geology says: it will be all right. Slow inch
by inch America is giving itself
to the ocean. Go to sleep. Let darkness
lap at your sides. Give darkness an inch.
You aren’t alone. All of the continents used to be
one body. You aren’t alone. Go to sleep.

Astronomy says: the sun will rise tomorrow,

Zoology says: on rainbow-fish and lithe gazelle,

Psychology says: but first it has to be night, so

Biology says: the body-clocks are stopped all over town and

History says: here are the blankets, layer on layer, down and down.

-Albert Goldbarth

A Minnesotan’s Vacation

As my vacation in Florida is coming to an end, there are a few things that have become vital for my enjoyment of the various amusement parks. As a very pale Minnesota girl who sees warm sunshine maybe 3 months of the year, I’ve found that sunscreen, patience, and aloe vera are a girl’s best friend on these kinds of trips. After spending 10 days between Disney World and Universal Studios, I’ve needed an enormous amount of all three of these. Here’s to the last day of my trip, where I can hopefully continue to avoid serious burns and losing my temper.